I know it's been a little while since I gave you love. I've been pacing back and forth in my apartment for some time now trying to figure out how to jump back into my blogging organically. I've been hoarding topics and material in my head for some time but I haven't felt ready. Or had the courage. I take pride in being an open book, but sometimes that can be harder than it seems.
This year got off to really a rough start for me. I lost my grandmother who was like a mom to me back in January and it's been pretty hard to cope. Especially how things went down with my family towards the end, it was truly an awful, despicable situation. Let's just say that I've always known I was different than them, but this was the first time in my life that I took pride in that. So since all of that, I've struggled with the grief, some depression and PTSD. I'm trying my absolute best to be ok. Self-care and wellness are a huge part of what I preach and a big part of that required me to take a step back and just be.
I struggle a lot between wanting to keep it "real" and keeping it positive, especially on social media. Having some partnerships and sponsorships required me to jump back on there fairly quickly, perhaps even prematurely, and I didn't want to be that "downer" (you know the kind). So staying active, positive and present on Instagram has been my main focus and, frankly, just about all I could handle.
Aside from all the personal things and feels, my fitness goals took a bit of a backseat. I've stayed true to the gym but I've also stayed true to donuts. 😬
My current body fat is 22%, 158lbs. Most definitely not my leanest. They say if you know you can do better, do better. So I've decided to start a new "cut" tomorrow. That basically just means I'm bringing down my daily calorie intake. I'm also starting a new training program at the gym.
It's an 8-week program to lose some body fat and get my mojo back. I want to keep you guys in the loop of what I'm doing, so stay tuned and make sure to subscribe on here if you haven't already. And if you feel inclined to join me, I'll be giving you the tools to do so! We are in this together, babes! <3
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